Rainy Days Call for Coffee

If these titles don't make sense to you, don't worry in the least. Oftentimes, my fingers start writing before my brain catches up, which then sends me on an adventure that I am completely unexpecting.

I believe this entry was supposed to be an inspirational section sharing what went on in my head on rainy days. That, in turn, required me to sit down and sip a warm cup of well-made coffee. This is supposed to be an honest entry so I must say that I rarely can sit and sip coffee when my mood is as black as the mug in the picture above. In those moments of struggle and darkness, there is to be only one way to go--to the only One who brings me light, life, and hope.

For years, fear has been a battle for me in which I have not seen many victories. I find that when I become afraid, (afraid of anything) my judgment becomes muddled, and I don't know which way is up.

There have been many days where I stand in front of the mirror and wonder if I really have made progress in my life, or if I stand there as the same girl I was years ago; cowering in fear of what may be, and dealing with a great lack of self-control. These were real concerns, and things that I indeed needed to work on with an immense amount of vigor, but I had become so caught up in trying to win the battle on my own that I willingly chose to ignore the Truth of God's Word; the Truth that again and again says, "Do not be afraid, FOR I AM with you."

It is not that He will be there to watch as we are afraid and as I struggle to fight through the lies and the fears.

The wonderful, undoubtable truth is that He carries us.

And when I am in a battle, and He picks me up and carries me through to victory, none of the glory or credit goes to me. It is all Him. That is the way it should be. The only thing I can do in those moments of being carried is to rest in His arms, pray for His eyes to see, and believe that He will do what He has promised.

So when life feels bleak, and we are overwhelmed with all the things in our view, we must shift our gaze from the battle before us to the light of the Son that gives us life. I say this with all honesty, "Though you cannot see the end, or the light around you grows too dim, the truth remains that He is near. So trust His word, and do not fear."